Post #9

...nothing is good right now...I went to the doctors yesterday and there was no good news whatsoever. I am deciding to cancel all my future therapy appointments. I have cancer of my mouth. Those bumps turned out to be tumors. But, I also have throat cancer and rectal cancer. That cancer was able to spread through my digestive system. I can't believe I was so ignorant towards everything. The doctors said that it was most likely all the alcohol that I have consumed in my life. My addiction led to this disaster. I am however, willing to live my life to the fullest. The doctors gave me about 3 months to live and those 3 months I will live to the fullest. It's hard huys. I really don't think that I will continue posting. I can't waste time. I astually think this is wasting time. I only started this because of my therapist and that's no more. Sorry you all. I really need to focus for the next few months on what I love in life. It's ok...i'm free of the addiction, but it left its mark. That's life...gotta get used to it!

Its interesting...my last post is my 9th post...that's the number of years that I have had alcoholism...

bye...

Post #8

So I have just gotten back from a typical physical. All the doctor said from his notes was "poor, poor Frederick". That was not a good sign. When the doctor came back in, I was scared to death. The look on his face was NOT a good one. He told me that I, in fact, have cirrhosis of the liver. I also have bumps in my mouth that gave my doctor a scare. The cirrhosis is curable because they saw it early enough, but the bumps in my mouth are another story. Hopefully they are nothing to be afraid of. I have to return to the doctors tomorrow and get them thoroughly checked out. It'll be alright. I know it. Wish me luck!