Post #7

I told you guys that I would not post until after my rehab. Well...here I am. I am done and I feel great. The withdrawal is gone and I am ready to get back on my feet. I am going to get my GED and get that job that I have always wanted. I want to be a mechanic. That pays extremely well. That is going to be a great time of my life. I am very passionate towards cars. I have always loved them and always have been fascinated by them. Anyways...this blog is about the now, right?...nah...I LOVE CARS!!!...anyways...therapy is still going on. This will hopefully seal the deal on my disease. I have to get rid of this. I could be like George Bush. He was once an alcoholic but he has been sober for over 20 years. That is an inspiration. I am going to do this.

Post #6

Alright...I leave on December 22nd (just in time for Christmas). I have not really talked about my therapy sessions and that has been going very well. The therapist says that we are almost done (really have about 3 more months). I am excited though...I only have 11 more days...I really don't want to post until after I get out. I want to make sure that I become more focused on rehab. I really want to get clean. Poor, Poor me. I have to have some sympathy for myself. How did I get this bad? Anyways...wish me luck guys...I need it.

Post #5

Alright guys...I really have nothing important to say. All I have to really say is that I am doing alright. After having this disease for over 10 years, I feel like this is my last year for this monster. This addiction is not an easy one; no addiction is easy to overcome. I have been going through withdrawal, and it was extremely difficult. I can't wait though, to get back to real life and look for a REAL job. I only have about 13 more days.

Post #4

Alright...I decided to not really post anything for a while. I really wanted to see how I have done since the last time I posted. Let me tell you, this rehab is not easy. I have gone through many withdrawal symptoms. I have been feeling nauseous, insomniatic, anxious, and haven't eaten well. I do however, think it is working. I feel like I can live my life sober. Maybe have a drink here or there. NO...hold on...I got to stop myself there. I am here to stop this. I CAN do it. I am really getting the hang of how life goes here and how I can stop this addiction from ever ruining my life again. Luckily my parents came through for this rehab price. As I have already said, the cost for the therapist was not cheap. I love my parents and I do not know how I could live without them. Since everything looks promising for me so far, I feel like I can see the light at the end of the tunnel. I have only a two more weeks left and I am ready to make it worth the money. I can't let my family down and I can't allow myself to quit. I have to get through this. I will.

Post #3

Here I am at rehab. We get about an hour to use the computer. Because I am so into my addiction, I have to stay over night. It is expensive, but it may be worth it. I like it so far. We have "class" twice a day to stress that dangers of being an alcoholic. It is not cheap, but I think i'll be alright. This is really needed and it is supposed to work. I don't know. I am in the dark. Did I make the right choice?

Post #2

So it's my second post, and it feels good to get everything (almost everything out). I am warming up to this theraputic method, however, skepiticism still entangles me. I am going into rehab tomorrow and this is going to be interesting. The therapist is luckily going to be there for the regular appointments. She doubles at her own office and at the rehab clinic. This rehab clinic isn't too special. After using a lot of money on my therapist, I have to watch how I spend my money right now. Alcoholism does a lot to a person and making them broke is anotehr thing. I have unfortunately had a drink...a lot...to drink. I really need this rehab. I can't take this anymore.

Post #1

Alright Guys...this is my first blog...My therapist/physician has told me to write these down for my health and to fight my addiction. She said that this was all to reflect on my day's events. Let's hope this works because I can't keep putting away this fact that I have this disease. I feel trapped, but because of my friends I am getting help and I am semi- optimistic. It's hard and I knew that I had to do this. I finally have just accepted the fact that I have this problem. Many do not even accept it and end up living a depressing life, until they die of, perhaps a liver malfunction. This is why I can't keep living this way. The therapist said that she will see me twice a week. I really hope this works. I have had this for too long, now is the time. I have been struggling with jobs, relationships, and family because of this monster. Now is the time, for I am at my end.